I am going to take this chance to work a little more on the book I am writing. If you missed the first part, just take a look at the category section of the blog and select Dear Younger Self.

I am just posting part of chapters here and mostly just the letter itself to my younger self and not the biblical reasoning or the backing of what I have learned to share with the next generation.

This particular letter is addressed to my heart. Specifically, it deals with my own love life and the people that I love.

Dear Innocent Heart,

Your life is going to be one of sorrow and heartache. You will feel the ups and downs of love and will feel your heart ripped from your chest on more than one occasion, but I promise you it will be worth every moment of it in the end.

I can not tell you who or when, but people you either love now or will love will be ripped from your arms. Some of it will be natural, and some not so. Some will still be alive, but the situation dictates that your heart will never love them again. This love I talk about is the love between brothers and friends. You will learn that blood doesn’t make a brother and brothers will hurt you blood or not.

It is not my place to tell you who will leave and who won’t. instead, let me urge you to love those in your life. Hug those you love when you leave. You never know when that’s hug is the last one you will receive from them. I will also urge you not to shut down your heart and not let others in. Some you will lose, and it will make you a better person having them have been in your life. Some, it will make you better them not in it.

Whatever you do, make sure you love with your whole heart like today is the last day with them because I promise you there will be some you will yearn for 5 more minutes with.

Love is a weird thing. From the moment you’re old enough to think girls are pretty. You will look for the one that makes you feel complete. I do not want to give away the ending, nor do I want to steer your love boat, but keep your head up. She is out there, and she is waiting for you.

My one word of advice and I know me and I didn’t listen but sex isn’t love so don’t use it as such. I can not explain to you the amount of you that you can give that one girl if you don’t give it to every girl.

My heart has been broken by so many girls in my life, and I can not tell you who and why, but trust me, SHE is out there waiting for you and when you find her don’t wait just marry. Again, you’re me, and I know me, so you will. Once you have her love her with your everything. I messed up and didn’t give her my whole heart out of fear of heartbreak for many years, and that was a mistake. Love her with your all. She is your all.

Your love is something you take with you when you leave, so give it out and don’t let anyone wonder how you really felt and when SHE gets into your life don’t let her go she’s precious and will give you the children your heart can love without fear of heart break.

Signed,

A heart broken and broken and broken, then put back together by the hands of True Love.